{"id":3213,"date":"2012-01-16T19:20:46","date_gmt":"2012-01-16T19:20:46","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/fatebook.eternalevil.com\/?p=3213"},"modified":"2014-01-07T19:13:12","modified_gmt":"2014-01-07T19:13:12","slug":"crimson-clover","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/fatebook.eternalevil.com\/?p=3213","title":{"rendered":"Crimson Clover"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" width=\"560\" height=\"315\" src=\"http:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/oEIvlihb2Ms\" frameborder=\"0\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe><br \/>\n<!--more--><\/p>\n<p>By now the headache is better. Jacques was here. I got some answers. But unlike all the times before no comfort. Not because he didn&#8217;t try but because of what I saw. He warned me so often and I never really listened. Yet in the end he&#8217;s just as much of a liar as all the rest of us. With him nobody really expects it though. Doesn&#8217;t change the facts. So no more letting my guard down. I just Greg the order not to let him in anymore once I have another of those headaches. No opening anymore. Both of us know that might get him killed. Still. It&#8217;s important. No weaknesses anymore. He&#8217;ll have to earn even the smallest of truths from now on. Maybe I have been too easy on him&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Mascha was here. She must have been in the room too, took a picture and told me to get back to her once I&#8217;m in the shape to do so. I&#8217;ll try and meet her some time soon. And then there was Jason, who had the smarts to just keep talking. That at least meant some distraction. It&#8217;s very confusing to find his report more comforting that anything Jacques had to say while he was here. Only goes to show that I was right with my initial theory.<\/p>\n<p>The thing with Jacques is&#8230; I could tell him right now that my gut tells me something is wrong. He would listen, probably not give an opinion and say something along the lines of &#8220;if that is the way you feel it is most regretable &#8211; but it is the way you feel&#8221;. He&#8217;s not one to fight for affection or whatever the hell this is. He&#8217;d let me go, thinking it was my choice. Knowing that is what hurts the most.<\/p>\n<p>Also&#8230; From what I saw in his mind&#8230; He&#8217;s much less honest than people would think. He relies on half-truths himself. And that makes him a liar just as bad as I am. Only with me people expect it.<\/p>\n<p>For the first time in a very long while I feel&#8230; jealous. However, I finally figured out why. Guess it&#8217;s the blood. Which means I have to get rid of it. Fast.<\/p>\n<p>And then there&#8217;s Dee. Who would have thought that creating progeny could give a man so much trouble. I have to figure out how to put this before Thomas and Jacques. How to avoid that they think this is simply for political gain. Which they don&#8217;t really think but have to assume anyway just because they think the clans will. Not that they&#8217;re going to know any time soon. Styx would. Gracht would. But the prince put the traditions into our hands. So that means I have every right to create her as my own. And after that? I&#8217;d be a fool to bring her to domain gatherings straight away. People would look for her flaws &#8211; and they would find them. Dee can&#8217;t be perfect straight away. I should wait for more kind times to bring her along.<\/p>\n<p>Yet&#8230; How to break it to her? How do you tell someone that you&#8217;re about to kill them? Yeah, immortality. Such a sweet little lie. But a lie nonetheless. Plus one that makes you more vulnerable. Besides, she&#8217;s no longer going to be able to take care of me during the day. Instead she&#8217;ll need someone to do it for her. Greg can&#8217;t cover us both. Consider our traveling habits and the whole problem becomes more apparrent.<\/p>\n<p>There&#8217;s a good solution to all of this, I&#8217;m sure. Right now it&#8217;s just somewhat hard to put my finger on it. 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